Calling

Today is a monday for me--although its really wednesday. Its a gloomy-rainy day--although the sun is shining hot outside and the DJ just announced that its a storm-free and low-pressure area free day today.

Monday...gloomy...rainy...

Probably its because I didn't feel like going to work today. Not that I feel lazy or anything...it just didn't feel right. It didn't seem to be the right thing to do. Its like I should be somewhere else doing something more important.

The problem is...I can't quite put a finger on it. I don't know what it is that I should be doing at this very moment. I'm not so worried though that I'm wasting my life on nonsense...because I know, at the back of my head and at the core of my heart...that I am exactly where GOD wants me to be. This is probably what He wants me to do...think and wonder about my life...make myself ready for the days to come...grow up, mature, believe.

So my life right now is pretty much similar to that of the star in the movie WANTED. If you havn't watched it...GO! NOW!

I know better days are coming...SOON... really SOON! I can feel it. Its tingling in my bones. Its like a word you've forgotten but you feel is at the tip of your tongue. That close. Its really at the tip of every part of my body. Its here. It arrived. It just needs to be discovered.

What I'm waiting for is my real calling. The one which I was created for. My ultimate purpose in this world...

Soon...I will be living that purpose.

Uuuurgh!

Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurgh!

...days have past since my last blog....

...and i still hate my job!

...this is becoming to be quiet consistent...and lasting...and permanent!

...Wow...

...this is soooooooooooooooo sickening!

...and I want to go home...

...bye!

Hunger...

No...its not the emotional or spiritual kind...

Its the real thing!

I'm reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally hungry!!!

skyflakes... (eek!)...sandwich...(hmmm..)...chicharon...(yuuuum!)...

lechon! (perfect!) with rice and extra-rice! (yes! charap!)

So what can help us curb hunger?

So far, all my head banging and brain shaking made me come up with one answer...

NONE!

Nothing can curb hunger but food...and more food!

Well...coffee can help...or a really devastating problem...but only for a second or two...and then you get more hungry!

Actually, the more you ignore your hunger...the more it makes itself manifest in your stomach...and worse...in your brain!

Now, instead of thinking of rice and pritong galunggong...you find yourself dreaming of the likes of kare-kare, crispy pata, adobong baboy...and all those cholesterol-filled and stroke-inducing------but without-a-doubt... delicious delights!

I've been dreaming of baliwag lechong manok lately...

hmmm...maybe i'll have one for dinner tonight...

hhhhhhungry....